Suicide is what I want br Suicide is what I need br To live without these feelings br growing within me. br br You said I cut for attention br You were right on some level. br In the beginning that is what it was for br Attention. br But even though you found out br you left me alone without care or doubt br you thought that after seeing a counsler br I would be just fine br but I want what is supposed to be mine br the attention of others br and no lonliness for thee br its what I want br not these feelings within me. br br Pain and suffering br is what I feel now br Pain and suffering br there is no hope now. br br If you wished to help me br give up your hope br for now I am br eternally broke. br br The puddle is bigger br The puddle is black br The puddle is swelling br and cannot come back. br My blood rushes forth br in a river of red br till it congrigates br and Im dead.