Numb, freezing. br I just want to die. br Trying so hard br to cling to something br I don't want. br Everyone outdoes me, br everyone is better than me. br It's never about me. br I can do no right. br Why not just die? br And... br I just can't seem br to remember why br I stayed alive. br I thought I had reasons br that stopped me, br kept me living. br But now, br nothing seems to be in the way. br I'm so cold, br shivering and shivering. br My mom would tell you br it's because I don't have a heart. br Please my dear, br just kill me. br br Feb.