a girlfriend came in br built me a bed br scrubbed and waxed the kitchen floor br scrubbed the walls br vacuumed br cleaned the toilet br the bathtub br scrubbed the bathroom floor br and cut my toenails and br my hair. br then br all on the same day br the plumber came and fixed the kitchen faucet br and the toilet br and the gas man fixed the heater br and the phone man fixed the phone. br noe I sit in all this perfection. br it is quiet. br I have broken off with all 3 of my girlfriends. br I felt better when everything was in br disorder. br it will take me some months to get back to normal: br I can't even find a roach to commune with. br I have lost my rythm. br I can't sleep. br I can't eat. br I have been robbed of br my filth.