Why am i like this. What have i become. br I am being so immature, i feel dumb. br I could lose friendships over worthless subjects. br Never will i stop being negative, which uproars in conflicts. br Honestly i can't do anything right. br I am beginning to really dread each fight. br No i can't listen, nor can i understand. br My friends try to resolve things before the difficulties expand. br But my negative reaction just goes out of hand. br Someday i hope to fix this, until i can feel grand. br But for now, i will just stay like this in my negative reaction. br Until i can change that is, which could be an option. br br [[written on March 18th,2009.