i hold the pillow tight against my face to silence the tears br i look into my mind releasing my darkest fears br my chest starts to hurt and my head throbs br my tears start to turn into violent sobs br i think of my father which makes things worse br my putrid life i start to curse br im going into blackness never to return br now my chest is starting to burn br i hear no one just my violent breath br i hear my heart beat quicken inside my chest br im reaching out for you but your not there br i want to see your face and feel your hair br i cant take life without you its hurts so bad br i am a lowlife child without a dad br im the one who deserves to be six feet under br my body collapse while my soul begins to plunder br i hate myself more each day br i feel nothing but never ending pain br please come back just for a minute or two br please daddy i need youbr br Jean Pullmanbr br