If you love someone is it supposed to hurt? br Why does love always bring so much sadness? br Split seconds flash before my eyes br As momentary as the click of a camera br If you are not ready or just unsuspecting br Love will come out of nowhere br It will capture you in a flash of light br For a moment it illuminates your smile br Captures it – br Captures you br Captures what you are holding safe in your heart br The light so bright it was blinding br Suddenly exploding into a million pieces without warning br I am left standing alone in the dark br br It is now over br I stare into the picture I am left with br This is not the vision of love I had once dreamt br I am able to now see not only the moment caught up in love br I can see the negative filmstrip that captured the picture br All of the hidden dark lies are now obvious br This picture tells my story of love br If you look closely you will see it written in my eyes br Here you will find the small hidden entrance to my soul br You will now see why my heart is so heavy br It is holding the weight of so many deep scars br You will now see why I fear to be touched by another br It is my internal body that wears bruises black and blue br Clearly Visible against the deep red of my bleeding soul br br I loved you br You used your fists and left your mark on my skin br Did this love me in return? br I cared for you br You used your hands to hold me violently against my will br Was this your way of caring for me? br I adored you br You threw me down in anger forcing yourself upon me br Was this how you chose to adore me? br I committed my life to you br You - abused me.