I'm finding myself on a Christmas high br Lot's of loving family and I know that's why br People all around me, so full of cheer br Wanting to see me, is why they are here br Family all close in one house of love br And mother with me, from heaven above br Oh please don't let this great high leave br It will be back to my old self, where I will grieve br In that deep black hole I must not fall br Coming out will be such a slow crawl br I will fight hard to not let it in br I don't want to travel back to where I’ve been br Past is past, must keep it buried br For so many years, this pain I’ve carried br Going to make a New Years resolution this very year br Going to hold back old feelings, try to keep my mind clear!br br Donna Nimmobr br