When I’m not in love br I feel this special sadness br Inside br When I start again br To be with the man br But I need to be a woman br So I go to another br Who makes me feel this way br And for a while it’s OK br But this sadness inside br Is still racking my heart br To the end br Of the new romance br With the man br I’m not in love br I can’t love anymore br If I know br That the man br I wish to be with br Is so close but silent and br In the deep of my heart br I’m still with him br In my dream br Lying with husband br Trying to love a new one too br Always this same br Sadness of the heart br After another cold night br Cold insidebr br Anna Cellmerbr br