No matter how hard I try, br I cannot do as you want. br I am yours, br You are mine, br Yet br I live as if you don't exist. br My flesh consumes me. br I'm addicted to my sin. br You provide me with means to escape, br But br Either I'm too blind br Or too arrogant to escape. br Why is it that I find it so difficult to trust you. br Since the begining of time you have br Been here. br You have always shown yourself faithful br And keep your promises. br Promises of your omnipresence br Promises of my freedom from sin, br But br I neglect these promises br And continue in my debauchery. br What is wrong with me? br br (7-13-06)br br R.M.