First Walk br br I took my first walk since you've been gone, br I can't say I really felt alone, br I ran into so many memories along the way, br I was remembering things you used to say, br br Like 'ratcicles' and 'for all the tea in China', br Like I needed another reminder, br And 'that jackass' was the most anger you displayed, br I smiled at the thought, it was a nice day, br br The kind of day when we first started walking, br Watching our feet as we were talking, br Warm in the sun and cool in the shade, br We spoke of everything and plans were made, br br Then back for more coffee to get us all prepped, br We spoke of our kids and how bad we'd slept, br We drank and vistited too long and too much, br We kidded trying to get the best coffee cups and such, br br You were more mother than sister to me, br Mama so much like grandma used to be, br With 15 years separating the two of us, br Events in my life with you I discussed, br br You who came with me to find my son dead, br The only person there who kept their head, br When the bastard tried to take my baby away, br You were with me in court everyday, br br When I needed a sitter the kids wanted you, br Now they have no one and that is true, br I have to get my car inspected all alone, br It was fun with you when things went wrong, br br The sun made my shadow so clearly defined, br I kept looking beside and saw you in my mind, br In your redbird shirt and blue jean capris, you were there, br I probably looked silly but I didn't care, br br Now I am home and I have a mess, br It will be easier today I guess, br The reason I know it's true, br Because today I'll be working with you,br br Vallerie Lobellbr br