Couldnt sleep tonight, i lay awake with my mind churning mostly about him. i cant escape these thoughts that are consuming my mind every single minute of everyday, but mostly he is in my heart. br i want to be with him i want to hold him in my arms such a dream not in the cards for me i think. br why cant i be with him? he is all i ever wanted, why do all the things we want most in this life seem so far away and never become our own. br to be with him would be like living a dream in a dream itself, but as if a dream is not reality, i can see how two dreams could be just a distant desire, the deepest longing of ones heart, a fading glimpse in eternity and when i wake its gone. br i find it so hard to keep him out of my mind when im awake, but if i some how manage to, when i sleep i will still dream of him, and the distant hope, a clenching and longing desire, that someday he could be mine. i lay awake in restless cries hoping one day he could be mine, and each day i go unloved a little more of me dies...