If I could just understand why I push them away. br They get close and I put up walls. br I'm afraid of commitment. br I dread what they expect from me. br I can't fullfill their needs or my needs. br Will happiness come my way? br br Do I dare let it? br How will I react to love? br The same way I always have...I run or I ruin the situation. br br I am too happy now with a certain man and I can't relax in the situation. br I think of things to say to let him out. br Will happiness come my way? br br If it does I think I will destroy it, like I do all of them..