Stared at beautiful orchids this morning br my heart opening up like a flower, fear br and stress fell away, my silence at home br is appreciated, life is still safe, withdrawal br is me-time, mother is fine, I shall concen- br trate until I conquer my document, face br into my problems like a true soldier br br My little problems supply me with a cross br so that my loved ones are safe, I prefer br being an outcast to popularity, it is a great br learning experience, I find joy and beauty br where others find none, tonight I shall br meditate on lists and Dutch legal terms br until the fear and depression subsidebr br Margaret Alicebr br