Why is everything so confusing? Can I be out of my mind? br It's a cold night, I'm sitting here on the porch, alone br in the dark. Thinking, thinking about what we could br have been and what I should've done to keep you. br I just can't help it, I push guys away. What can i say to make you br come back to me? I know I screwed up and I admit that. br It was my fault, but now I want you to come back. br Yes, I know that I don't desrve you but then again you br don't deserve her, you can do better than both of us. br The thing that still bugs me, is why don't you? br Is it because you just don't want to or you settle for less br than what you desrve? I may never know what it is, or why you are the br way you are but I do know this, I love you. br I know that I may have not shown it, that I love you but then again br neither did you. I'm not the only one who went and messed up. br You played a role in this screw up. We jumped into this relationship way to soon, and yet we did nothing to stop this chaos. br Maybe we were both blinded by the unconditional love that we br had for each other.