NO! br I dont want her to grow up to be like me, br after all I have ever done and the only thing she has ever seen br is mom and me fighting, Tim and me fighting, or mom and Tim br fighting. Not once has she seen us as a whole family. br Knowing she is growing up and beginning to look like br me and all I want is her to grow up oppisite of me. br I dont want her to be like me and break down and cut, br I know she can't handle pain to well and hopefully she grows br out of it and does not become the person I did and make the br same mistakes I did. I'm not going to try and fix my mistakes through br her but I just want her to be the better side of me. br Knowing I can't change what she has seen and knowing br that nothing I do can change her way of thinking, br she's as stubborn as me, that could be a good thing br or bad. No one knows, no one will ever know the deep secrets br that i hold within and I pray to God that she does not do the br same. Never again would I be able to live with myself knowing br I gave that knowledge to my little sister and she turns around br and uses it against me. I don't want my little baby sister to br become my enemy. Having to fight her every day about shit br that I did in the past and screwed up badly. br One night she will turn against the entire family and once br again I will be left alone. Just as Tim did.