tic tic tic br I watch the hands on the clock go by br I sit here crying br thinking br why am I like this br why am I so alone here br I sit up br to find the closest thing to comfort br the bottle at the edge of my bed br I know I would be better off dead br then gettting into that br but hey how much can it hurt is all I think br I do not want to go down that path like the rest br I tried t once br and yes I felt numb at first br I felt so good br but then I started thinking br and it all came crashing down br I do not want to do that again br I look around br for something else br anything else br I see the phone br I’ll call someone that is what I will do br I tell myself as I pick up the phone br I start to dail br and then realize I have no one to call br I go on my computer br and just my luck no one is one br I walk outside br hhmm darkness br that is a beautiful comfort br too bad that is robbed of me br due to safety br but then I think br how bad could it be br and so I start to walk br into the darkness I run br I wanna be free br I wanna be me br I don’t wanna be alone br I sit under a tree br staring up at the stars and moon br I cry to the moon br if only if only br I had but of friend br one person to walk with br one person to keep me from doing want I think I might br for that one person could have saved a life br this very nightbr br Scarlet .....