Why was I so stupid br Why did I let them get me down br Why did I let them drive me to this point br Where there is almost no return br br Why did I just sit there br Letting them brainwash me br Letting them tell me I was the problem br I was the one to blame for all br br I was so young br I just trusted what they said br Trusted them br There is my mistake br br I grew up br Blaming myself br Hating myself br All because of them br And why br br Like how could they do this br HOW br They broke my soul at such a young age br br I lived in darkness br Not even knowing of the light br br Afraid to feel br Afraid to hurt people br So afraid to be myself br That I ended up losing myself br br Now that I see all this br I am left with but a shell of a person br So how am I to start living br When I am not all there br br I want my life back br I want to be whole br I no longer wanna be broken br br For fnck sakes I know I am not the one to blame br I am not the fncking problem br As much as you both all want to just say that I am br I AM NOT br br I did nothing but try to make you happy br I lost out on so much br cause I was too busy living for you br Well screw that br br I will now pick my pieces br And leave br With the little sanity I have left br Thanks to you all br br Hopefully br I will be able to solve the puzzle that is me br Then I will be whole br As one should bebr br Scarlet .....