I have been victimized. br I was in a fight that was not a fair fight. br I did not ask for the fight I lost. br But there is no shame in losing such fights. br br I long to reach the stage of surviviour. br I long to leave the past behind me. br But hard as I try I cant let go. br br I look back with hate. br I look forward with despare. br With in days of sadness.