here i stand br facing these inquisitive faces br searching me top to bottom br giggling, sniggering, wobbling br a pair of twenty eyes br br i look left and right br as if asking for help br but then i realise br i better help myself br br suddenly a gentle man stood up br walked to me and then br peered closely at me br an intimate glance br the whole class giggled again br br it then struck me what was to be done br i pushed the boy a liitle away br and then stared hard br at him below his belt br br the boy blushed br looked down br did not mutter a sorry br but did go back to his place br as i heaved a sigh of relief. br br down and then up br trying to avoid direct eyes br then i smiled and said br aren't we here together br you and i aren't we to help each other br br allow me to be myself br i shall help you to find yourself.