What’s inside my soul br br Right now I can see the lights of the heavens br Doors ain't open for me but I just have the edge of breaking in. br Only for a while until the storm is cool. br I know I've done wrong in my life br I know that every outcome right now is a product of my doings. br From the time I met you to the time I conceived you my life changed br Right now I don't know if it changed to the best or to the worst. br I am angry at YOU cause for as long as I can remember br I’m always crying br Sometimes I think I have the worst cause I always feel as if I’m paying for my sins. br I try to be strong so much that I feel as if I don't try enough. br I just want to die. br I just want to take a lot of tablets and sleep. br I just want to lie down and sleep forever.