Waking up in the morning br I'm shaking and terrified, br scared that the one I, br ~love~ br and cherish, will hurt me br attacking like a hungry lion br hunting for a prey, br When I gaze into his eyes, br they are as hard as a rock, br blue like a block of, br ~ice~ br an ice so cold, br you could dropp dead br if you touch it, br him, br or gaze to hard into the br eyes, br that were once, br two stars, round and bold, br So pure I could see his soul, br bare untouched and still whole, br But in a blink of an eye, br ~love~ br turned to br ~hatred~ br and becomes captain. br Cursing, shouting, rampaging and br violence, br are now born br he raised his hand to me, br against me, br for the last time on this earth. br So I raised a knife, br to him, against him, br for the first. br I finally won, victory, br and freedom, br at last. br But as the blood poured out of, br the heart, br the devil, br that ~hatred~ immediately br turned to ~ruefullness~ br then back to ~love~ br br Suddenly I wake up, br out of a, br ~dream~ br that is really, br ~reality~ br Once again I'm, br scared and terrifed, br of the one I ~think~ br I ~love~ br and the one I ~think ~ br I ~hate~ br What will I do? br Should I stay or br should I just br walk away... br forever.