My eyes held shut.... br darkness engulfing me.. br silence surrounding me... br I feel a smile come across my lips. br br I feel pressure.. br then aching... br surging through my body... br br Inhaling sharply... br the stale scent of blood br filling my nostrils...... br br I open my eyes.... br best friend in my hand... br small...but surely gets the job done... br br I look down at my arms.... br which are cut up.... br Beautifully... br br Gasping, br I cut at myself again, and again... br just repeatedly..... br br Not able to stop... br who am I fooling? br I wish not to..... br br br Feeling high, br at the sight of blood.... br inhaling again.... br br Mmmmmm... br how addictive... br my only turn on... br br Rubbing my blood over my body, br covering my face, my chest, br my stomache... br br licking up my arms... br savoring the taste... br looking in the mirror now... br ..... br you think I'm ashamed? ? br NO! br br This is me... br who I've become... br Who I was trained to be... br br Lady D, br also known as the bloody demon.