Everything that I once had is gone. br The life I had is now just a memory. br My old life is fading away and theres br no way in getting it back. br I can't grab it because theres nothing left. br br My smile has vanashed from existence. br I can't remember the last time that I smiled. br There is nothing left to smile about. br br My laugh has not been heard in so long. br I haven't been able to laugh in so long. br The jokes that were funny to me are no longer funny. br There is nothing left of my laugh. br br I desperately want to be myself again. br I want nothing more than to be happy and smile again. br I want to hear my laugh again and enjoy life. br The times with my family are what I need the most. br I want it all back but there is nothing left for me.