i tell myself br that this can't be happening br i try to act like i'm somewhere else br somewhere where this isn't happening. br thoughts in my head br thoughts of you br i feel like i'm completely dead br because i'm missing you. br i wish you were still here br by my side, but you're gone br i shed six hundred more tears br i keep trying and trying to hold on. br i'm nothing without you br i can't live without you br i want you br i need you. br should i pour my heart out to you br or should i hide it from you r ears br i'm scared to say the things i want to br but it's now or never so i should get over my fears. br tonight i will confess br how i truly feel br the lugubrious agony i thought i had rid has regressed br i tell myself all this isn't real. br i wish i could wake up br from this deathly nightmare br i tell my suffering heart to shut up br because you don't even care. br all i've been through br doesn't compare to this degree of hurt br i was just getting to know you br but all of that was thrown in the dirt.