I wish I knew br How to restore br Torn rose petals br Back upon their withered calyx. br br I wish I knew br How to rewind the course of my life, br Format my moments with you br And become perfect strangers again. br br I wish I knew br How to avenge with indifference br And sting with cynical glances. br br I wish I knew br How to unfamiliarize myself, br To untie the knots of the tender intimacy br We once shared, br And pretend as if br You mean NOTHING to me at all. br br I wish I knew br How to transcribe the language br Of an anxious mind br From invisible tears br Into a plastic smile. br br I wish I knew br How to look br And look away br From the one whose words br Still echo in my ears br And guide me every second. br The man I pray to br And pray for br Every morning br Every day. br br I wish I knew br How to heal bleeding gashes br Scratched time and time again. br br I wish I knew……..