can I just admit that br sometimes br I don't know what to say br where to start br or how to face br another day br br sometimes I can only lie br in bed br for far too long br listening br to the relentless rhythm br of the rain br as I avoid another day br br can't begin to heal br or find a way br to wash away br the pain br br thoughts and emotions br so relentless and repetitive br cascading br br and I still don't know where to start br or what to saybr br Paula Puddephattbr br