Did you ever hear br of the phrase loving you so much it hurts? br This holds true no more br than it does for me, every time my eyes gaze into yours br br I experience all the symptoms br one would before suicide or would while in love. br Everything from increased heart rate to increased blood pressure br every time I see your smile. br br When I see you smile shine br Brighter than the brightest full moon, br I find myself sort of breath br trying to find the words to say, but nothing comes out. br br Hand in hand with this shortness of breath br my breathing rate increases. br For with breathing slowly, I can almost slow down time br as I take in your beauty minute by minute. br br Weirder still with my lowered breathing br my heart beats faster and faster. br As my blood rushes to everywhere, but my brain br probably explains why my body freezes up when I see your body coming closer to mine. br br The thought of you is killing me day by day, because I care for you so much. br I try to forget you and leave you behind, br but for every second I spend talking to you, looking at you, and being with you, br is a second more I wish for to continue to drift in the fantasy. br br A choice of how to live to die or die to live br Thinking about you day by day not holding you in my arms kills me softly, br but the thought of my life without you would kill me instantly. br I would rather choose to live to die br br Even though I chose to live to die, br Truth be told I am living for you. br The thought of one day seeing you again outside of my dreams keeps me on life support br dreaming of feeling your warm, soft skin in my arms is a dream I would never want to wake up. br br Truth be told I would die for you as well br For thinking of my love for you hurts so much its killing me br Thinking of you, I may be committing suicide, it’s a sacrifice I am willing to make. br For I would rather die loving you than to die without you.