So I write br I write about my love for you br the feelings that occur while br br I go through this motions br of not having you besides me when br I awake in the mornings br br and knowing that the only thing that matters br in the end br is the love you have for me br br I write br I write about my kids br and how to go about trying to make br br there lives easier br to show then that I love them br more then they can imagine br br I write br I write about my life br that seems to be falling apart br br all around me br my mind that seems to poison br every good thought br br every hopeful motive br all my faith and trust br that I had inside myself br br so now br I try br I try to understand his problems br and know that I cant help him with it br but still keep in mind that he br br loves me br in hopes that he will return to me br I try br br to spend all my time with my kids br and not wander off into my own br private hell br br and show them everyday that I DO love them br I try br to keep my faith in God br br and believe that he has a plan that will suit me br so until then br I will focus on all the things I lack br br This has gotta be the hardest thing and most difficult br moment in my life br to actually do something for myself br br that will benefit me and my life br all my years was taking care and worrying about br everyone and everything else br br making sure that everyone else was happy br I thought that all ended br only come to realize that im still the same br br this is for him br my love, the other half that makes me whole br my bestest friend Randy br br I love you so br just to hear those words come outta your mouth br it feels so good br br the littlest things like the words br i love you too br can heal any broken heartbr br Phats Lovebr br