Within my soul im lurking for answers to the word happiness. br i have tried all i can, given all i can, done all i can but its' still elusive br The pain that goes through my head hurts more than a dagger stuck in my back br i have sobbed, cried, jerked, but all has amounted to nothing br My emotions have been battered, and my thoughts in total disarray br and all this words still wouldnt express just how deeply i'm in pain, how i feel br Always tried to push it away but it keeps comin back hauntin with a poundin mortar br i give it my best shot, one day at a time, ..then it comes and too quickly...it goes away br Pray..what more can i do., .im hurtin deep from within me..yet no one sees my pain br All they see is a mask..a scarred mask of my brittle bones which are already weary br of a heart thats given all and gotten itself susceptible to breakin over and over again br and i ask myself why, ..why, , why, , and the more, i do, what trickles down my face are hot sobs br They say that sometimes life comes hittin hard at everything..i try but i see nothin br im scarred...truly scarred waitin for the next way out..my soul hurts, really hurts.