i try to understand, br whats going through my head. br i try to say it out loud, br but it doesn't come out. br br i try to write it down, br but it comes out all wrong, br i try to express it in any way, br but i just cant. br br So many things in life, br just don't make any sense. br And the things that do, br don't make sense to why they make sense. br br i think i've forgotten the most important thing, br and even worse i can't remember what you look like. br but then again i can.. br br o what am i saying.. br to feel alive, br i have to stop feeling dead. br to stop feling dead, br i need to feel alive. br O dear.. br i am in a pickle.