The pain dwells deep within myself br I feed from the chaos br until I am full br my cup over flows br my heart races, burns br I hear each beat echo in my ears br the blood rushes to my head br I'm so dizzy br eleven months I have been on my knees br waiting to be empty, to feel so much less br I spew venom praying to change br what have I become, a monster? br a bi polar beast, br that births the chaos you dread? br when will the madness end? br will I ever empty? br I taste the bitterness of death on my lips br my chest throbs from the acid passing through it br what am I now..