the time how it flys br where has my life gone br i feel like im at the end br but shouldnt i be happy? br i have everything ive ever wanted br a good job, my family back and br a beautiful baby girl br am i wrong for feeling this way? br for wanting to runaway everyday br and escape these thoughts in my head br how could i want to leave my baby br leave her to live this life alone br am i selfish for wanting to end the pain br for feeling like im not good enough for her? br br everyday brings on more thoughts br of guilt and regret br i dont want her to end up like me br wondering everyday if today will be the day br you give into the uncontrollable pain br but how can i show her the good in life br when all i see is the misery? br br it angers me to think of br the mother i so badly longed to be br then i look in the mirror and see br an animal staring back at me br br i thought i could do this on my own br i thought i could be more br i thought i would get better br but now i see im only me br and me will never be br good enough for you my darling br br you wont ever have to look far br for i will always be there br i will forever be in your heart br so goodbye my angel baby br i love you more than you will ever know br mommy will be watching over br each and everyday.