Behind her smile br Lies the scars etched in her heart br Memories engraved in her mind br Ore the pain filled years br br Behind her smile br Lies the lie of a life disguised br Fueled by hate, deprived of rights br Loss of time, blotted light br While for many years she remained br Unhappily in dismay. br br Behind her smile br Hides the tears that almost forty years br Have bled like rain droplets br Against stained window panes br Yet the truth still remained br In reality her mind - br Momentarily deranged br br Behind her smile br She was captive br And secretly endured pain br While she tried to restrain br What refused to refrain br From welling up those white br Now red membranes that would br be publicly a dead giveaway… br She conformed and obeyed br br Behind her smile br Are the distorted veins that each bear memory br Of a life lived in agony, filled with turmoil br Living with a flawed, double identity. br br Behind her smile she simulates br Poise, confidence and beauty br Glazed with grace to hide br A heart once disgraced, br Her persona permanently defaced. br For years all this br she sought to hide… br br Behind her smile.