you seem to have this genuine notion that I possess a magnanimous heart br - and I believe our time together had calcified that image of mine in your head... br - after all, you have seen me in so many times give things, trivial and otherwise, to those who ask - and to those who need more... br br i must confess, however, that I nonetheless remain extremely greedy br - that even if I recognize charity to inhabit my being, I remain obstinately selfish... br - for even if I concede that your existence entwines with that of others, I can never bear to share you - not a single part of you... br br you must understand now - why what you asked of me is outright improbable... br you must realize now - why I rather be hurt and lost and exist in loneliness without you... br br - as I would rather lose you in giving, than to keep you in sharing.