we had goldfish and they circled around and around br in the bowl on the table near the heavy drapes br covering the picture window and br my mother, always smiling, wanting us all br to be happy, told me, 'be happy Henry!' br and she was right: it's better to be happy if you br can br but my father continued to beat her and me several times a week while br raging inside his 6-foot-two frame because he couldn't br understand what was attacking him from within.