twisting and turning br being dragged it seems br but by what br and what through br who is my attacker br where is he taking me br br my attacker is me br i attack myself br with knives and daggers br fire and razorblades br br when the blade pulls br across my skin br i feel heat br then relief br then the pain br br when the pain comes br i scream loudly br i turn up the music br so you cant hear me br i just scream louder br br the pain subsides br my screams turn to whispers br responding to the voices br in my head br telling me do it again br br so i take out a lighter br i hold the flame br to my skin br untill it blackens br and red liquid drains br br the voices say br turn the music louder br dont let them hear you br you deserve the pain br you know you do br br and i know i do br i deserve pain br excruciating pain br i need it so bad br i crave it so much br as i pull the blade across againbr br toxicity ryan adamsbr br