He has lost him completely.     And now he is seeking br on the lips of     every new lover br the lips of his beloved;     in the embrace br of every new lover     he seeks to be deluded br that he is the same lad,     that it it to him he is yielding. br br He has lost him copmletely,     as if he had never been at all. br For he wanted -- so he said --     he wanted to be saved br from the stigmatized,     the sick sensual delight; br from the stigmatized,     sensual delight of shame. br There was still time --     as he said -- to be saved. br br He has lost him completely,     as if he had never been at all. br In his imagination,     in his delusions, br on the lips of others     it is his lips he is seeking; br he is longing to feel again     the love he has known.br br Constantine P.