Uncontrollably weeping I reach for my phone br I ring him up and get an out of service tone br I know he's away and that's all I'll hear br But somehow when I call him I feel he's near br I write him a message that he'll never read br I have this crazy impulse, this urgent need br I know its irrational, I know its insane br But it helps me through the day and eases the painbr br Ghada Shahbenderbr br