saturday morning, br the scars begin to bleed, br take stock of all br that cannot be free. br make amends with shadows, br childhood lost, br no friends or family br around these days, br left alone br to anoint the ache. br pray against br pregnancy, br no desire to birth br a child, br not even a thought process br to enlighten, br i ruptured from your manipulation br of the situation. br heart on fire, br melt down of mind, br can you see the beauty br in a smoking gun? br can you feel the br revelation in a suicide note? br i can & br i do- br this isn't good-bye br cruel world, br i love and hate you- br if i'm forced to admit the truth.