years of denial finally payed off br i realised what you had done was wrong br i always thought it had been my fault br but how could it have been? br i was a little girl, you older - you had already seen too much br i didnt remember till I was old enough to almost love me br i always knew i wasn't completley pure, even when I was still intact br it was the root of alot of my evil br i never performed right, but lied, but always wanted more br it's my addiction br it's what makes me and what has destroyed me at the same time br i confuse it with love br and connect the two automatically br i never tell and probaly never will br my body may suffer, but my soul is still my own br but i, m still lostbr br Carolyn Vuleticbr br