disconcerting from the first moment. how to know br freak from mutant. what rules and if not rules, what. br freaks release the mind from proud obligations of duty. br hate, admire, destroy, venerate; easiest of all, ignore: br all these are permitted by the freak; br mutants threaten status; lessons to be learned, vain glory br to the first to claim to place, relate, pin down, tame. br but not this. where it comes from, quite uncharted yet. br not freak but mutant. that is certain. regret that this is so br diminishes us in our own image. br br it lives, works, by night. invisibly. under the skin br so to speak if speak. in what speech. what brain. for when tomorrow br next week next year we speak to it, its language learned br we’ll know we knew it not yesterday even today. it speaks us br not we it. easier then to write it off as freak br but irrevocably, echo on echo, it’s mutant. gratitude br might even be in order. but not yet, not now. br br for uneasiness is the nature of this thing, that lives. the easy-going br are not invited here. it’s there to bring unease. only when br we have lived with it for say a year, may, may not, reveal, br not where it comes from nor where it may be going as it passes br but perhaps a glimpse of why it is here, no more than that. br you will not like it any more than you like this. naught br is for your comfort gentles all. one day you may see br beyond it, a fleeting invitation to gratitude. one day br you may see beyond it, something like a love so great br that it’s not what you wanted to want from love. br and then it may vanish whence it came. br or perhaps become so familiar that you wonder br why it seemed a freak, a mutant, for now br forever it speaks you. poetry.