How can I be happy br when I know you are so sad? br It's impossible for me to forget br all the troubles you are going through. br Why do I try? br br Am I selfish for wishing I didn't care? br Sometimes I get so angry at myself br because I want to be happy. br I don't want to think of you br suffering. br br But then I think of you. br You are so sad. br You are so depressed br and alone. br You turn to me as if I can help br but, I can't help. br I don't know how. br All I can do is say I care... br because I do. br I really do! br br But, is caring enough? br Is it really enough to make a difference? br I fear it isn't. br So then I'm angry br because I feel like I'm letting you down. br I should be able to do something. br But, I can't. br br What type of rotten person br must I be........... br to get upset because I'm sad br for you? br br Isn't that the ultimate in selfishness br to feel angry that your happiness br is being disrupted by another's pain? br I'm sorry for being so selfish. br I wish I knew how to help you.