Why do i have to live in pain from years ago and recent br I try to shut out all the pain and to you be so decent br I bury it all and shut it out and it always will erupt br Trying to be always loving and forget so I won't be abrupt br I'm held captive in my mind, the pictures dance in my head br I can't forget the past, my mind busy when I go to bed br My emotions take me where I don't want to be any more br I'm a prisoner to bad memories, where I can't even the score br I start to sink into a deep black hole, where there is no light br I have to pull myself up again, not ready to give up the fight br I am a survivor now, I escaped the pain and sorrow br I'm over it now but it will be there when I wake up tomorrow br I asked god, please let me forget and make it go away br But the memories are there though buried, they plan to stay!br br Donna Nimmobr br