don't get me wrong, br I'm not suggesting anything. br .~. br Just saying, br the pain is so deep. br Embedded ever so far, br within my hurting soul. br .~. br At times, br I feel well, br but at moments, br I still have pestilential thoughts. br .~. br I've tried to forgive, br but I guess I just can't. br Wanting to just hide, br forever to sleep and never seeing the light of day. br .~. br Only thing left to say, br is...Sorry for all of this, br the non forgiveness, hurt and thoughts.