Your naked body, mother, I held onto tightly after running up the stairs. It felt gross but i chose to stay sitting between ur legs trying not to notice ur pubic hairs.. oddly enough.. I felt safe there... br br because in the doorway he now stood.. looking as guilty as he could.. br br when moments ago right downstairs he spit out his first outrageous lie: 'wha.. what.... where am i? ' sleepwalking? ! I think not.. but im still shocked... that u never let me keep any doors locked.. and now his excuses u *f-ing bought! br br You spent a hundred grand on two hot shot lawyers from Florida to come defend the man that would jack off to thoughts of banging ur 12 yr. old child! ! ! You even picked up the phone and for the operator you dialed.. br br wanting me to be psycho-analyzed... told the psychiatrist i was making up lies.. begging them, 'help her, please! ' as if i had some kind of disease.. then u sent me off to live with my oldest brother for a while... but u brainwashed him and my other brother too.. so much like u, they became in denial. br br Had no choice then.. moved in with dad. The next 10 yrs. ive been living quite sad.. and even wondering at times if I should have just made ur boyfriend glad.. shut up and been grateful for all that i had. br br You have a 5 yr. old grandson you don't even want to see... br Even though your dearest, mommy, has now confessed to what he did to me. My dad knows u really well, though, and he explained as best as he could. He says to forgive u, I should, because u supposedly mean well, and silently my happiness u actually condone.. (it's just that u suffer from a wreched fear) .. ur so afraid to be alone.