Listen to her laughter br as she tells another one of her br hilarious anecdotes on life br (where she normally makes herself br the punchline) br We can't help but laugh.... br she's so funny! br br Watch her eyes shine br with the excitement br of knowing we're actually ''buying it''. br She really thinks she's fooling us. br See her bite her lip br as she tries br to hold back the tears. br (If they fall... br she'll just laugh through them br and it'll appear she laughed br so hard she cried.) br br I see the fear br she hides deep inside br as it casts a shadow br over her eyes br and turns the bright blue br just a shade darker br than they should be. br br I hear how her voice cracks br when she makes a joke br about herself. br I feel her pain as she looks br across the room at the door br like a hungry child br spotting a jelly-filled doughnut br sitting on the table... br just out of reach. br br Inside she's dying.