i dont kno what to feel br everything in the room looks plastic br all the words fell from his mouth br like petals of iris unfolding br but not as pretty br br how to be now br what to say and do br i've never felt this way br and never want to again br br so if come back br am i to just say yes br like nothing ever happened? br who does that? br br cant act as if not one fiber attatched br itself br i cant be cordial br i cant be civil br i want what i wanted br but it doesnt happen that way br br im still coughing br and a little hole is burning br through my chest br br something on the inside br is bleeding... br br i cant translate this language br that you're speaking......