these tears i cry br pour down like rain br covering my cheeks br as they run down my face br know one can really see br the pain hidden deep within br buried deep in my heart and soul br these tears burn and sting br as they pour out br trying to release all of my br pain and fears that i have locked away br wanting to know more about me and my past br but always running into obstacles that last br crying myself to sleep br never knowing if the closure i seek br will come in the mail br or as your knock on my door br searching for you on the internet br even through my home state's adoption agency br wondering why you gave up br when we loved you so br oh mother.....