at the moment br all these thoughts, these boggling worries br are so wretchedly confusing. br am I supposed to settle my mind, br to tell everyone, 'this is how it's br gonna be and no way else'? br i simply can't escape the 'what if's' br and 'but maybe's' that are haunting me, br so daunting, so much like jericho br from the sunday school stories. br br all of my dreams, O Lord my God, br are laid out on the table. br br i am a fool? or would it be foolish, br to count them all as fable? br br yet now, at the moment, br she is here, and for all the few moments br we spend together i don't really care br how things will turn out. br it's just us, our dreams, br everything i want to be.