A life in a hole, oh what a scary fright br bad dreams run through your head as you sleep at night br you wake up crying all scared and alone br can't go back to sleep because you know they're not gone br br A deadly pain that runs through your heart br of knowing you were hated right from the start br i try to hide it from the world to see br but i cry like a baby, because it's killing me br br I asked for love and a helping hand br someone to be there and be a friend br tell me it was ok and hold me tight br help me make it through another night br br But all i got was pain in stead br a slap cross the face and a fist to the head br you said you were sorry and it won't happen again br you lied from the start and you'll lie to the end br br I remember one, night that i got beat br couldn't sit down, blood running to my feet br you ask me what it was you said br but i couldn't answer and you knocked me cross the bed br br I laid there and cried, the rest of the night br still don't know, what it was i didn't do right br are maybe it was because of all the booze you had br get drunk and come home all raging mad br br The things that you said and all that you did br still linger my mind from when i was a kid br i said i would forgive you and then i cried br and i told you i loved you before you died br br All i wanted was a friend and someone i could call a dad br to sit and think about it now makes me sad br as i sit in my world still scared and alone br i still don't rest easy, knowing my abuser is gone br br But some day i hope ill get over it and move on br of the abuse i received for wanting a home br i did my best to be your friend br knowing that i was the better man in the endbr br Tracy Rollingsbr br